lifeisbutadream

Wow. When she gets personal, she goes all out.

Beyonce’s HBO documentary Life is But a Dream delves into her marriage to rapper Jay-Z (including a sweet scene in Venice, which has them singing the song Yellow by Coldplay).

Lucky reporters got an advance copy of the film. And it was worth the wait. Seeing Beyonce, who normally never delves into her personal life, discussing her husband — priceless.

“It’s every woman’s dream to feel this way about someone,” Beyonce says about her husband during a vacation in Venice.

And yes, she shows her sonogram on screen.

But Beyonce, so private about her marriage and her life in general, goes much further. She shares footage of her trip to Paris with her nephew. She talks about wanting to “make love” to her husband. She explains why she decided to share her pregnancy news so visibly at the MTV awards.

Most notably: She opens up about her miscarriage two years ago, saying that one week she heard a heartbeat – and the next, nothing. And she talks about how devastating the loss was to her and how she retreated to the studio to deal with it.

Most movingly, she addresses stories that she used a surrogate to carry daughter Blue Ivy, now 1.

“There’s a stupid rumor. The most ridiculous rumor I think I’ve ever had about me. It’s crazy. To think I would be that vain – I respect mothers and women so much and to be able to experience bringing a child into this world, if you’re lucky and fortunate enough to experience that, I would never, ever take that for granted. It’s the most powerful thing you can do. Especially after losing a child, the pain and trauma from that just makes it mean so much more to get an opportunity to bring life into the world. It seems like people should have boundaries,” says a visibly shaken Beyonce.

You see her with Blue, just being a mom, and with Jay-Z, being a wife. Overall, it’s a savvy and just-personal-enough glimpse into the life of someone who generally reveals nothing of herself to the press.

By the way, as her “did she or didn’t she” inaugural controversy rages on, anyone who doubts Beyonce can sing should watch this film. The lady is majorly, seriously gifted.